“Fade Into You” - A Kannon Falls
Tale
She walked past the hippie toward the
payphone in the parking lot of the Pink&Black alone in her own
little world and thoughts, old acoustic guitar hanging from her back
the zippo in her left hand snapping it open and closed. If she could
pinpoint in time that moment that she could call perfect, Naomi
Sadler would would say: Eight in the morning, June fourth, 1999. the
morning that the sun came through the old window blind and curtains
causing everything to dance with angels of dust and vanilla yellow
light as they emptied out the old house on Charleston street, her mom
wept into her hands standing barefoot on the wooden flooring.
The sickness had progressed as had the
treatments leaving Mrs. Sadler as bald as a new born. And, Naomi
found this moment, this mere second in time... beautiful. Eight weeks
later, it would be one of the last lovely memories she'd have of the
woman who raised her.
Naomi and Dean Sadler moved on, as they
had to. Her father had wanted to shut the world in on himself, to
lock it all away and to live in the pretend idea that his wife was
alive and she was simply elsewhere. But he couldn't. He was alive,
and Naomi were still alive.
And they did live. Slowly at first.
After Mrs. Sadler's heart had stopped they lived one minute to one
minute. Then hour to hour, day to day, then week to week, finally
month to month when they got a good handle enough on the pain to make
it through. There were great times, and sad times and all those
wonderful times people live in.
Naomi grew. She made friends, she made
enemies. But the world would open up to her one day and no matter how
hard she tried to shut it out, it would seep through the cracks and
come for her. She had to be ready.
The first sight of it was a rainy
Friday night over at Jackson's house killing time like they always
did, goofing around and having fun celebrating the dying of the
school year and the coming of university and the real start of their
real lives. She'd started a large bowl of popcorn in the microwave
when Lil' Joey finished rigging up the old VCR. Somewhere one of the
boys had come across a tape of some 'haunted childrens show'., it was
probably Thomas. He had some weird obsession about those ever since
he found out that Power Rangers had been made in Japan. Him and
Jackson were yelling and tackling one another on the sofa killing
time before Naomi finished with the snacks.
“TK,” She called out to the living
room for Thomas Keen, everyone called him TK since the other Thomas
was a part of the group before him. “Hey TK I need you in the
kitchen.” This caused the other boys to hoot and holler about her
needing him in the kitchen, and she just shook her head. They maybe
her best friends but they were still immature for her taste.
Especially Other Thomas, he'd been getting weirder as of late. When
TK showed up, that all disappeared and light was brought back to her
as she looked into his eyes.
“Hey.” He spoke the general
greeting for their generation.
Naomi felt the heat in her cheeks and
the warmth in her stomach, “Hey.” She said back leaning some to
look up into his hazel eyes. “I just wanted, you know, a minute or
two alone with you before we go back out to the jackasses.” She
giggled, she wasn't a giggler, but something odd and wonderful
happened when she was with him. It wasn't a crush, she had those
before, it was something terrible and more. It was great, and she
hated it at the same time.
TK just leaned forward and put his
forehead to hers and they stood there looking into each others eyes.
Her pulse rose, she took her fingertips and put them against his hand
and their fingers interlocked. And in this moment, it was beautiful.
“Hey, yous guys comin'?” Cut the
voice of Lil' Joey bringing them back to then and there. They made it
to the door of the kitchen leading into the living room of the ranch
style house before they let go and took their places on the old sofa,
the cushions scattered about and the blanket that was supposed to be
draped across the back pushed down somewhere firmly in the crack
between the cushions and the back of the sofa.
She took up the position near the right
arm, bringing her knees up in front of her and her feet digging down
into the fabric and braced herself for an assault on good television.
The children's program in question was 'Candle Cove' or something
like that, poorly done show about a little girl and her 'pirate'
pals. Naomi was sure that if everyone in the group turned out their
pockets right now they'd produce more money then the budget of this
show had.
A smile crept on her face as TK put his
arm around her and she nuzzled in closing her eyes as the terrible
puppets acted terrible to a terrible story.
Naomi slept.
Opening her eyes, she was in the
Beautiful Moment. Her mother in the middle of the room hands over her
eyes, the light warm against her skin and the room filled with the
smell of the old house and still air in Summertime. But it wasn't the
same. It was only this room, and the light came in from the creases
in the walls and the door behind here that should have lead into the
long hallway into the kitchen. And more then anything, Naomi wanted
to stay here.
“You can't.” Spoke Mrs. Sadler, not
removing her hands from her face. “You can't stay here no more then
I can come to you where you're at. But we are always together baby
girl.”
“Why are you crying then?”
“I'm not crying because I'm sad...”
There was a soft little laugh as Mrs. Sadler removed her hands, there
were light lines of tears rolling down the curve of her face.. “I'm
happy, happier then I'd ever been Naomi. Yes, there's sadness in this
because I know I'm going to die soon, but I'm getting to spend
whatever time I have left with my wonderful husband and precious
daughter. The two most important people in the world to me.” She
walked over to her daughter and pulled her tight against her frame.
It was at this, Naomi had realized how
frail her mother had become but she was happy, breathing deep there
was the warm welcomed smell she hadn't realized was missing. The
smell of her mother's perfume and faint hint of something like
ginger.
“I really wish I could be there for
you baby girl, but things are going to change soon. They're going to
change in ways you won't understand.” Mrs. Sadler moved her hands
up and cupped her daughters face, the thin fingers pushing softly
into her hair line. “But be who you are, smart and strong. Be that
woman and you can succeed over anything baby girl.” Her mother drew
her back into a hug and there was a pause. “I am so sorry for what
has to happen next, but it has to happen for a reason. I pray to god
there was another way, but...” The hug was broken and a kiss placed
on Naomi's forehead, the way her mother did it when she was four
years old. The way that let her know that everything was going to be
alright and that the world has some reason for the things it did.
“I wish I could stay here forever
mama.”
“I know you do. I know. But you
can't. There's a whole big world out there for you. To live, to
laugh, to fall in love.” Her voice was a soft whisper, barely to be
heard over the natural sound of the world, and with that she let go
of her daughter and stepped back, bringing her hands up to her face
and turning away.
Naomi put her hands up in the air, and
in that moment she was a small child dancing around once again in the
bright Summertime world of the past and memory.
Slowly waking she was alone in the
living room. Naomi got to her feet and looked around, the night had
turned darker and the storm taken a much bitter turn. The sounds of
the others outside on the covered patio brought her attention to the
waking world. The beauty of that time in the Summer years ago gone
now, her left hand rubbing her eyes as she stretched and blinked.
“Hey I cut the paper doll. Ya' gotta'
bleed for it.” It was Other Thomas' voice speaking to Jackson it
sounded like. Jackson's normally low voice couldn't be made out
through the storm windows, it was only by the fact that Other Thomas'
voice was shrill that it traveled as well as it did. She knew he was
a friend now but in college they'd go their different ways. The same
was probably going to happen with all the others with the exception
of her and TK, Naomi could she her and him together for a long time.
The others, unless something life bonding happened in the next five
weeks – were just going to be a half remembered person who she
spent time with during her 'awkward youth'.
In the months after the fire and the
thing from Hell coming to life, whenever she'd catch the scent of
fire, or see it, there was a cold terrified response somewhere in the
lizard part of her brain that screamed for her to run, to run hard
and to run fast. Something that had lasted less then one hour had
made her phobic of one of the primal forces of the world.
Her fingers dug the change out of her
pocket as she walked past the hippie. Guitar on her back swaying wit
her movements. Naomi leaned in, resting against the cool metal of the
machine and dropped the change in and dialed. “Ross Mueller?” She
asked and tensed up. TK had told her that his grandmother had
dealings with this freak show in the past and there was something
about him that was damaged mentally on a fundamental level and showed
up at the Pink&Black almost weekly.
The voice wasn't what she expected. It
reminded her of one of those generic voice actors from a kids cartoon
back in the '80s. “Who is this? How'd you get this number?”
“I'm Jessica Keen's granddaughter.”
A simple enough life to start out the fabric misdirection. “I heard
you're the man to talk to about things most people don't want to talk
about, things that people can't believe in. Listen. I'm going to be
frank. I know a lot of what you're saying is made up crazy talk so
you can get info out of people they don't realize they're giving you.
But I need you to cut the bull and talk straight with me. Ok? Do you
understand?”
“You were sent by the UFO people and
the Illuminati...”
“I said cut the bull and talk
straight with me.” There was a firmness in her voice that she
wouldn't have been able to call up a few months ago.
“Alright. Alright. I'll drop the
act.” He muttered into the phone, his breathing rasping against the
receiver as he held it too close to his mouth. “What are you
wanting to know? What do you need to know?”
There was a faint disgust at the sound
inside of Naomi for a second but she moved back to business. “I
need to know.. everything about around here. Every note, scrap of
info, everything. Got it? Because if you hold back anything it'll
probably cost me my life. In one weeks time, meet me at Ellen's Cafe
off one-oh-five. Got it?” She slammed the phone down on the plastic
hook and the entire rig shook.
Naomi quelled her anger. There was more
at stake then just her life. A lot more. The general anger she now
felt at the world didn't help anything, in fact it got in the way now
she needed to be calm and collected, to listen to things, every
little thing, every drop of rain, every ray of sunshine. It was still
six hours to day up and her meeting with the other members of the new
Midnight Society.
Barefoot she walked the two miles to
the Red Falls town square, the moon big and beautiful overhead,
guitar moved into her lap as she sat down under the clock post and
started to strum something. She didn't have the keen music skills of
Lil' Joey, but with the six strings she could make a pleasing sound,
the same series of chords played over and over again.